It’s 2 a.m. and I’m wide awake. Why, you ask? Let me tell ya…
I’m supposed to be going for my beta test in the morning since it was day 14 after my IUI but I wake up with a cramp and lo and behold, Aunt Flo decided to show up. I’m just so disappointed.
This was supposed to be THE month. It was the first month that I had 2 follicles which was supposed to give me more of a chance. Well… In my mind anyway. Everything about this cycle felt just different. Rather than ovulating on day 24, I was early and rather than just having 1 follicle that would take its time, I had 2 very mature follicles. It just gets frustrating when you don’t know why it’s not working.
This is the 3rd failed IUI attempt. Needless to say, although today I have to make the dreaded day 1 call. I also need to tell my doctor that I will be switching to someone more local. That’s going to be another hard conversation too. The other hard conversation is telling E first thing in the morning that we don’t have to make the hour drive. It’ll be hard because I know he was so excited to find out… Just not this way, and not this answer.